Get Up is Gone

A majority of my life has been spent under some kind of fog. I acknowledge it and at some points it could even be said that I aim to do something about ending it. I don't think that I've ever tracked it though and I only find random bits here and there that give me any insight into what I'm thinking as time goes on.

For example, I found a blog with bits about my depression and then another one on a different site. I toyed with reading my entries but they weren't aimed at being very objective and so they also weren't very helpful.

Today I'm going to do a bit of research. My hope is to track down what a person studying their own depression should be tracking. Then I was thinking that I could jot down the majority of what I find here and call it good.

I could write at least weekly but maybe more often than that. This could be my yard stick and I could understand a bit better what my mind is choosing and which direction it takes. Today is overwhelming but I can't understand why.